My sons Pride and Joy have been obsessing over electronic games on ipod and ipad. I was wondering if they would ever look away from the screen and enjoy any kind of games, until, I emptied one of the boxes. The children went wild and started playing with it and the classic power of the box won at the end.

With theories of The Law of attraction, power of the mind and a tad of wishful thinking I often wonder. Are we getting what we wish for or six sensing what we will get? Whose will is at play here? What is even more interesting is trying to prove either one is the case. Could be as difficult as a dog chasing his own tail.

An endless argument that keeps me wondering!

I have been running around with different tasks that procreate upon completion. Nevertheless, i am enjoying every single bit of it

While cleaning my folders i was going through some pictures and tasks that need sorting which took me back in time. The past few months been dense. I done things that i have always been dreaming of. One of which is Spread the Passion which I created over a year ago and I am very proud of. It has evolved over the months and it is great  having the privilege of being amongst great volunteers who dedicate their time for good causes.

I used to shy away from talking about everything I do. I only do so when i feel it is safe. Otherwise, half way through the list I notice people’s faces drop either in shock or disbelief. I can’t help being hyper and doing more than one thing. It might have resonated in my posts as a constant thing I struggle with for approval. Nor do I like the term hyper, it is my own normal pace that I am living at.

After the laptops (yes plural) clean I went through the past few days, I managed to accompany it with some thought sorting which left me feeling very organized. I can do with a digital clean every once and awhile.

I fear saying I am back to blogging as I still have few other blogs I am managing and an endless list of things to do but it is always a happy occasion to land on my personal blog. It feels like home. Be it a digital home. A pause in the chaotic, busy, short lived thoughts out there

I am a wonderer and I wonder of the many absences and come backs and the elongated come backs that i have to write to to compensate for my absence.

Thanks Areej for sharing it

I am always amazed at how time affects how we see things and how special dates can elevate our hopes, motivate our efforts to resolve problems for a better future. Change seems to hang on certain occasions and certain days of the year. As the world turns one day older making it one year older different promises are being made. A simple note to self or perhaps a declared resolution. You are almost always expected to do something different. The world seems to be calling for a new leaf and it provides us with many reminders of such and opportunities to do so. As change is a natural process, our only choice with the passing time is the direction that our life will lead.

Besides the weight loss plans and things to achieve by so and so date, how many people are aware of how much they changed and the direction of change. Was it a planned change? or a product of circumstances?

I remember promising myself as a child that I will not change because I felt adults were insensitive to the feelings of children and i wanted to remember how things felt and how i can sometimes judge a child with a child’s mind. How adults would teach us certain values and then forget to apply them. How adults build boundaries between one another enriched by political agenda while children trust more and befriends more people. Yet change is almost inevitable.

and so my wish this year is not only for a simple change but a metamorphosis of achievements that would contribute to humanity. I do not have a list of resolutions but rather a plan of events to leave an impact and inspire others to care and contribute. These will be revealed as the year progresses and beyond the year as I have long term plans.

Wishing everyone a very happy year.

As I was writing and  scheduling blog posts I could not help but wonder what benefits would we get if everything else we use can be scheduled as such. I remember when timing your VCR to record shows while you are out, was a technological wonder. With technology so far there are still oceans of possibilities and things that would just require developers to develop the code necessary for certain applications or tasks.

It would be wonderful if personal email could be scheduled (please tell me if it could) as sometime I know what I want to write but I don’t want to make an announcement yet. I think spammers or marketing guys know a way to it or have such module in their email options. 

Same goes for text messages from mobile phones. While i can schedule sms via websites and hope that it would arrive on time, I would like a similar function on mobile phones.

These things could be available in which case I want to know where ?

So I woke up on the morning of Eid trying to recall the many thoughts that were woven with my dreams. The flat was quiet, I briefly remembered my son and my husband making their way out in the early hours of morning. I sat quietly and was thinking, -hmmmm how long should I wait before I purchase an ipad?

-Do I really need it or I think I do?

-Not sure with the current features

-I think I will wait until they add a camera

-Bet I can get lots of educational apps for the children

So few minutes later the outside door opens and my son and husband arrive and greet me for Eid with a special gift. An ipad

I was still in trance from joy and might not have said thanks enough and definitely not to the level of my joy. How did he read my thoughts? I never mentioned it I just thought it. I was overjoyed with the gift but mainly that my husband figured out what I wanted without me even saying it.

Of course I downloaded loads of free apps from the itunes store which I hope I can review when I have time but I was especially happy with the children apps and educational material, which means that my ipad will be subject for common use but seeing my 20 months old son’s expression is priceless.

My children now wake up in the morning and approach me to play with the ipad.

I still wonder how did he know

When studying for exams or writing notes I used to be very picky about the presentation and usually resorted to using pencils in order to have the chance to rub mistakes off. I even used to use them for diary entries and labels as I don’t like to make mistakes or keep things that are messy. Inking was only for final drafts or when I was sure no mistakes will be made.

Yet I wonder with all the uninked notes and labels why do we (perfectionists) fear mistakes so much to the extent that we keep things in draft and temporary stage for far too long. A similar feeling would be to keep things in plastic or mint condition. The special value for that untouched preserved item (like the way I kept some of my diaries and stickers). What was I waiting for before I ink thoughts and use up some of my stationary. Well preserving things to pass down to one generation is one thing but the extreme of not using most of your possessions for some unknown time in the future seems to not make sense anymore.

Assuming that time, need and space is static is an obvious misconception, but not too obvious for a perfectionist who could also seek the perfect moment to use things. Things change, which is a natural process that we need to accept and we might realize too late that we were too careful and protective of things that we had outgrown the time to use them (does not apply to my stationary yet).

This thought made be less afraid to stop living due to fear of making mistakes and hence on the slate of life I am not afraid to ink things and then cross them off and make corrections, because no one is born perfect and progress is an important process to celebrate.

As part of my trips to London I get to focus on myself. This includes eating more healthy food, exercising and completing my wardrobe. I don’t get to shop much with the children I only go for bare essentials but alone in London I get to pass time after university and weekends by going shopping. So as a winter essential I needed new boots. I found a pair I liked at ecco and thought that I can tick that off my list but I noticed that whenever I past shoe shops I kept on looking at more boots. I thought that I already finished with that but somehow I kept screening windows for black boots. I don’t need more than one black pair. Maybe I was interested in comparing the ones I got with other brands. I tried t brush it off and tried avoiding the urge of walking into a shoe store.

“Move on lady to the next thing on the list” I thought to myself not conforming with cliched womenly habits. Then I needed a bag for my laptop and then again after purchasing one that is the first thing I spot at windows and shops. I thought that this behaviour is something I wish to understand. I don’t think I am the only one who does that and thought why do we do that?

It could be an issue of comparing what we have to what is out there? We want the best so that could be part of it? I wonder what important function does this behaviour is associated with? I have my own theory and I can only see it from a geneticist point of few as selecting the person with good genes to pass on to offspring that would involve comparison. But why doesn’t that thought switch off once we made the purchase or does the point of focus lingers for a while.

Just wondering